I had friends coming over to the boat this evening for a sail. I slept in and felt fairly OK when I woke up later in the morning. I ate immediately upon waking up, which is abnormal for me. I took a Nal and ran some errands for supplies after I cleaned up the boat. When I got back, I had one beer before my friends came over.
However, I began to feel very strange physically. I felt a constant low-level panic attack most of the day, even after taking two Neurontin, which usually helps quell this feeling after a binge. Thankfully, the wind came up to a level that was more than I thought safe for a newbie crew, so I told them we would wait and see what the weather would do, which I thought would buy some time to drink off the anxiety and find more food.
After three beers and a shot of tequila and something to eat, about three hours later I felt well enough to take the boat out, but I was definitely not operating at 100%. I was concerned the whole time on the water that a panic attack would hit, and felt extremely tired.
After we returned and my friends left, I wanted to kill this feeling, so I took down the last 1/4 of a pint of vodka I had and two beers. I was able to go to sleep shortly after that.
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