Day Sixteen

I managed to finish off the entirely of my normal 375ml bottle and it knocked me out as usual. That was some binge last night; I still don't know how I managed to consume most of the bottle in 17 minutes or why.

I woke up today an hour early, again with some withdrawal symptoms. I could not fall asleep and have felt anxious all day. I pushed the snooze button for about a half an hour, and when I got up, I felt fairly normal for a standard evening's drinking. I have had a feeling of light anxiety all day and have not yet eaten, nor do I feel like it. My eating habits have been reduced to one large meal at the end of the day.

Rereading my continuously updated posting from last night has proven interesting as a window into my mindset when I've been drinking and how others may perceive me.

I have noticed that my overall appearance has been affected by the last two weeks, and I believe I have gained some weight. Functionality has once again become difficult, but I'm managing everything with some moderate effort.

I must admit that I've been looking forward to tonight's drinking session today.