Days Twelve and Thirteen are run together in a drunken blur. This is behavior consistent with my pre-Sinclair Method drinking patterns. Day Nine's binge triggered a five-day bender wherein I consumed a 750 ml bottle of rum, a 375ml bottle of vodka and all the beer remaining from Day Nine. I haven't taken inventory yet on the exact numbers, but I estimate this bender consumed about 80 units. My normal weekly intake is estimated at 40% alcohol x 375ml x 8 = 120 units, so the levels of consumption are high, but still slightly below the average, I believe.
Day Fourteen
Hangovers on Naltrexone are more intense than without, and a general feeling of being tired and spacey is what I'm currently experiencing. I had some withdrawal symptoms this morning, and I'm finding myself a little shaky and I hear some wavering in my voice today. I had to quell some anxiety with a double dose of Neurontin this morning, as I felt an impending panic attack. I don't feel as bad as I think I should; I was able to taper off my consumption last night to try and avoid withdrawal. I still have a 24oz bottle of beer in my refrigerator that I didn't drink, so I'm seeing that as a positive sign.
I knew there would be experiences like this during treatment, but because in the end I will have a legitimate CURE for this problem, I'm willing to go through this.
Tonight I purchased my standard 375ml bottle of vodka. I drank maybe 3/4 of it, and slower than usual. Possibly a result of effects still apparent from this weekend's bender.
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